Just when I thought inspiration is down~

I don't know whether it is meant to be, or that everything turns out right just as they are suppose to...

As I wrote in my entry yesterday on how I have lost some part in me due to routine, I received a heart-warming text from Mark, early this morning (Japan Time) as I was walking to my office. The text reminded me that there are friends out there that I love and believe in.

Just as I thought lunch is another lunch today, I received 2 parcels. One from my parents, one from Boi. Both contained cards which lifted my spirit like nothing else. Parents sent me some blackcurrent supplement pills to save my eyesight from the evilness of the computer screen and work stress; Boi sent me an ENGLISH book to read, burned DVDs of ENGLISH movies and series (yes, I have to stress on the "English" bit as I have been deprived of them), some herbal mix and spices for cooking, plus a badly written snail mail, which clearly reminds me of him. Hahaha.. man, I love everyone!

Just as I was reading my horoscope on Friendster -- I don't usually believe in them, but they seem to hit home at most times which is quite scary.

It says:

The Bottom Line

Having a routine might get boring from time to time, but uncertainty is worse.

In Detail

Despite the fact that having a routine in your life might get boring from time to time, you will find a great deal of comfort in knowing just what is going on in your daily life for the next few days. There are few (if any) mysteries for you to solve right now, and that should suit you just fine! You need a period of stability right now -- it will give you the firm foundation you need to let your mind wander and figure out what next big task you should tackle.

Could anything else be more coincidental? After all these encouragement, I will definitely fly outside the box because I am a butterfly of FREEDOM!

Running out of ideas

Sometimes, when we are in a place that we have to just do what is required of us, we lose our own selves in that process and in that place, we lose the abstract beauty in us, and we forget how to show that part of the beauty to the world and to those around us that matters.

Make sense?

What I am trying to say is, as this applies to me, I just work and work and work. Getting up at 7.50am, take the 8.32am train, reach the office at 8.58am, and work til whenever that is required out of me that day. Monday - Friday, routine...

No one I know likes work. But we all have to do it, now or sometime in our future. I am talking about general public anyway.

I am losing my abstract self, and I need to gain it back by smelling the neighbour's jasmine flowers in the weekend, or just sit by myself in a train platform, not going anyway, just sitting there and observe people.

I need to write, I need to paint, I need to play sports...By the way, I can't find acrylic paint here, they only seem to sell watercolours... sucks! Anyway, made myself a new pair of glasses, and I look totally like a librarian. Perfect.

New toy!

After nearly 2 months, I finally got my hp in Japan! Yeah, one of those funky coloured ones. I have to go to a certain SoftBank shop in order to catch the only English speaking staff to set up my contract. After fixing on the leather strap which Ronald bought for me before he left, onto this vivid pink baby of mine, viola! its ready to go. But somehow, I feel as though I am not using it to its full potential....not being a tech-savvy person is, at times like this, a pain to oneself. And the fact that despite the phone being bi-lingual, it does prompt me in Japanese once and again .. errr ... I don't understand you, new toy...